6 Week Mark Blah

Today hasn't been the best day for me.

First, Daniel's computer has decided to crap out and he has been trying all day to fix it (making for a very fun Saturday). He could drop another 300 dollars to fix it...but that isn't happening. We really want an all-in-one computer. There is one at Costco we are just drooling about, but at the moment we aren't going to dump 1500 dollars on a computer when we are finally crawling out of the depressing hole of credit card debt (due to lovely doctors bills from last year). Right now Daniel will have to use what's left of his laptop and I may have to sacrifice mine to his schooling and work. Yay for being frugal! Yep...did I mention his laptop is just over year old and we have already had to get it fixed once? ugh.

Second, I am wicked tired. I have recently started a hormone therapy for this dear baby growing inside me. Since starting, I have literally spent all day in the bed, but then I started getting restless leg syndrome. I blame my extra fatigue on the progesterone suppositories. Before I took the progesterone I thought I was tired; I could have taken a nap at any moment in the day before I took the progesterone, but I still found the energy to exercise, clean, and get ready. Now, my eyes seem to shut on their own, even if I take a nap. I can't get enough sleep. I feel like the living dead. My apartment truly reflects the way I feel right now.

Third, the progesterone therapy is making me cramp to the extreme. As long as I don't see blood I won't worry too much about it. My ultrasound is coming up on January 28th at 7 week 3 days, so I am hoping to hold out till then.

Fourth, I have lost a small bit of weight because I am having major food aversions. Daniel has gone out and gotten me things that I am craving, but after I eat a few bites I never want to see the food again. I am actually really happy about this because I never had such bad food aversions in my other pregnancies so I am hoping it is a good sign! At the same time, nothing sounds good--not even water even though I am so very thirsty! I gag down my large pre-natals every day too (4 pills a day).

Fifth, the last time I was pregnant I started bleeding at this point in the pregnancy. I am grateful that this baby seems to be doing better than the last. At the same time I get a little sad as I think of my last pregnancy. I don't know how much time this little one will have with me. I guess I am just sad because I am remembering the last loss more today than I have in quite a while. It's a reminder that things don't always go the way we want or plan. I know this feeling will pass as I continue in my pregnancy. Plus, I feel like I have been there, done that with this part of pregnancy. I can't wait to get farther along so I can experience new things!

All in all, I am happy for the fatigue, pain, and aversions because I am pregnant again and I am hoping this baby is a fighter. I say, bring on the morning sickness and round ligament pain! I can't wait for this baby to ninja kick me in the cervix and bladder!!