So much Change!

I have had a lot on my mind lately.

Mainly I can't wait till 24 weeks (viability) and for my anatomy scan at that time. Once I know our boy has a good chance to make it I will start allowing myself to buy items. The joys of knowing loss all too well. We will probably start considering names for our baby by then too. But the good news is our blood tests for abnormalities came back all normal and our child is now bouncing around in me constantly letting me know that he is doing alright and I shouldn't worry. I am so grateful I have been able to feel this baby for so long, it gives me a lot of comfort. It's like God knows I needed my baby to be bouncy to keep me from worrying all day every day.

I also think a lot of our move in December to Wisconsin. If this boy makes it, we will have a 3.5 month old and 2 rambunctious puppies to move out. I plan on flying the baby out and Daniel will drive the dogs. We plan on professional movers to get us from Utah to Wisconsin. We may also sell and get rid of a lot of our stuff, so keep an eye out if you want anything. We will have a lot more baby stuff, but we will save getting the crib for Wisconsin and generally try to simplify the baby gear until we move into our new home. I mostly worry about our car making the long trip in the winter as well as finding a house to rent that won't eat away our new budget (yay we won't have to depend on parents as much). We will settle for an apartment only if it has a washer/dryer, allows two dogs, and if it is semi-private. I think we are aiming for privacy and a fenced in yard this time around because we will have a newborn and two dogs...we don't want to be the annoying apartment neighbors. Plus, we plan on buying a house within a year or two after feeling out the area and saving enough for a down payment.

I know there is a lot to do now, but once we settle in we can start over. I know that has been a big thing for me since the first miscarriage--I want out of Utah. I want to start over. New state, new awesome job, possibility of a great grad school, a newborn, and close to my family but still far enough from relatives. I don't think I will ever be up for living too close to family. We like our privacy to an extent. I think my biggest concern on the Washington side of the family is the disance ironically, especially since there will be two boys growing up around the same age. I am worried they will not know our child and this may lead to comparisons. I know my unborn children have already been compared to my sister's kids many times already. I hope everyone will respect my child and my struggle to have this child and not put us through that. We do have plans to visit WA as often as possible and Daniel and I will have to figure out a way to keep our child in the loop...perhaps bi-weekly e-mails?

But I am very excited to live closer to my folks!!! We see those in WA more than I can see my family due to traveling complications, but now it won't be as bad. I can see those nieces and nephews more often and even maybe visit the Boston crowd more. I know I have missed my parents very much and I hate that they miss out on a lot of our lives. I am grateful that we are able to move a distance of 6 hours from them so that they can see this grandchild of theirs grow up. It was always one of my biggest concerns about moving away from Michigan. I am most sad to leave my friends and the geology of Utah, but once we settle in we should be able to come and visit Utah once a year at least. And we will use part of Daniel's vacation time to come out to WA during the summer for them to see the kids, most likely when the Boston crowd is out there as well.

I can't believe how much our lives are going to change in just a matter of 8 months!!! All this change is exciting and nerve-wracking all at the same time.