Halfway! 20 Week Update

First and foremost I will document my symptoms like I do for all my updates. Easter was terrible. I spent it crying and extremely sick with a cold and I forgot to take my unisom and B6...so I was throwing up like the good old days. Needless to say, my morning sickness is still in full swing. I even throw up while on my unisom and B6 regimen, but it is more manageable. I don't have the all day sickness, mostly the mornings and nights are bad now.I did gain a little bit of the weight back that I originally lost so that is good news!

I now have been diagnosed with bad sciatica, so bad I went to get checked to make sure it was sciatica and not something more serious since I was having contractions along with the back and leg pain. I am glad I got checked even though I was 90% certain it was just sciatica. I would have never forgave myself if it was a warning sign for pre-term labor or a uti/Kidney infection. I was just told that I am one of the lucky women who get severe sciatica early in the pregnancy. It has been so bad that I am done functioning. Cooking? Cleaning? Nah, that is in the past. Now I live and breathe trying to manage the pain. I hear a chiropractor can help. I will have to look into that. I was also told not to stand, sit, or lay down for long periods of time. Now that just makes me laugh! What does that even mean?! I am beginning to really miss having family around. The Easter Holiday was just so lonely spending it pregnant and sick. I am glad we are moving to Wisconsin.

What am I worried about these days? Well, with the pain and sickness I am seeing the 20 week mark as a "20 more weeks of this?" type thing, but even so I am loving every second knowing our boy is strong and active. After two miscarriages I don't care if I am on bedrest all 9 months! Though...any recommendations for netflix? haha! I am also worried about not buying too much for the baby since we will move when the baby is 3.5 months across country. We don't want too much baby bulk!

20 weeks! But I admit, my real goal has always been 24 weeks for viability. That will be the day I will really celebrate because it is the point in the pregnancy where doctors will try to save the baby. That means the world to me.

I watched Coneheads last night and I teared up when Beldar (the father) saved Earth so that he could make his daughter who was raised on Earth happy. Beldar told his daughter: "Your positive perception of me is vital to my existence. Besides, it is not everyday a father can give the world to his child." I feel as if I have gone through Hell and back and this is my way of giving my little one the world.

Which, by the way, we chose a first name for the baby. Actually...this name was picked out long ago (back when pregnant with angel baby #1).  His name will be Nathaniel Gunnell meaning "Gift from God" (with a middle name we have picked but may change). We will most likely just call him Nathan. We love this name so much and feel it was designated for our boy.

As celebration for hitting 20 weeks we made our first purchases for Nathan.

We won't do the crib thing for many reasons. The main reason because we are moving in December, so we decided on a Pack N' Play with a changing table and bassinet. It is very sturdy and holds our dogs very well! We did the build a bear monkey when we found out we were having a boy. We have Nathan's actual heartbeat recorded so when you squeeze the monkey you will hear his heartbeat. We also bought two little suits because they were on sale. I always hate how those suits are expensive, but we bought two for the price of one. We got one for Christmas and the other for Easter time. We got the tuxedo onesie for sale to wear on Sundays until he is older. We weren't going to get the Batman onesie at first even though it was on sale until we realized it has a cape! So Nathan will be Batman for Halloween.