38 Week Update

This pregnancy is coming to an end. For me I feel like it is about time, but not in the same way people who are blessed to never have losses feel. I am not sitting here sick of pregnancy or wanting it over because I am "so uncomfortable". In fact, I have enjoyed this pregnancy and I am saddened to see it go even though I had random little problems throughout it all.

I will miss feeling Nathan on the inside. This pregnancy has given me a re-found hope in my body. After my losses I was worried I would never carry a child to term. Now I will be holding a baby anytime. I am excited to regain my body back as much as I can even though I plan on breastfeeding (so Nathan will still have a claim). The reason I feel like this pregnancy has gone on forever is because in a way it has. I have been pregnant for over a year with my three pregnancies together. If I count in the time in between each pregnancy where I suffered through deep sadness, wondering if I will ever have a child on this earth, then I have waited well over a year and a half for this baby. This is not counting the time we chose to wait to try for kids because of my field course getting in the way even though we longed for kids for years before Nathan. So I have waited. I am ready. I want Nathan to come as soon as he is ready.

I have officially gone off my aspirin therapy as of a couple days ago. It makes me worry a little, but not too much. Contractions have picked up even more, but now they are very much welcomed. Earlier this week we thought the baby might come soon since I was having contractions every 4 minutes for 9 hours before they settled down. But it just shows that Nathan is getting ready and my body is practicing and getting into gear. We wanted an August baby, but it looks like it isn't going to happen. I am not really a fan of September birthdays. There are just too many of them. I am sure Nathan will change my mind on my feelings about September birthdays.

My blood pressure has regulated. I am really happy about this because I don't want to be induced if it can be helped. Of course my blood pressure can spike anytime, but it has been nice not worrying about it at the moment. I am hoping for a smooth next few weeks.